Tonight will be my last night hanging out with all my good friends here in lansing.

It’s kinda crazy to think that in about 5 days I will be leaving my home for good.
I’m so excited and nervous about it at the same time.
Nervous simply because I have all these thoughts like what if I can’t make it on my own, etc etc.
I’m moving to this brand new place with no family or anything there. 
I mean, it’s 823 miles away from where I live right now.
What kind of crazy person would move that far away almost on a whim?
I like proving to people that I do have my shit together and know what I’m doing and 9 times out of 10 when I do do something that’ll effect my life hugely, I normally have a plan.

Then I get to thinking about it and I also realize I’m so not alone in any of this.
I have this wonderful man in my life who wants to take care of me, who wants to make sure I’m always happy no matter what, who wants to give his all to me and is doing everything he can to make sure we’re good to go when I do get there. This guy is one of the smartest people I have ever known, literally. He wants to make plans with me, make decisions with me, help me with whatever I need or want, and he’s always a shoulder to cry on or arms to fall into. I constantly forget that I have my best friend with me always. He’s never going anywhere. He’s gonna be there for me through it all and vice versa. I mean, I know it’s a common thing to fall in love with your best friend. However, 9 times out of 10, it doesn’t work out because the other person doesn’t feel the same way.
I will never understand how I’m part of that 1/10 who gets be in love with her best friend and have the same feeling returned, if not even harder, but I’m so lucky.
He makes any nervousness go away when I remember I have him. I won’t ever be alone. The weight can fall on both of our shoulders now, not just mine and not just his. We’re in this together. Best friends and lovers.
And I get to marry him in about a year and a half.

I get different opinions about him and I. About how we’re too young, how we’re moving to fast, how the statistics show this or that or whatever. But I mean two people can date for 5 years, marry then divorce 3 years after that. 
So really statistics, what people say, etc, don’t mean anything. Only you knows what makes you happy and I don’t believe you should ever deprive yourself from that especially if everything you’re doing feels so right and you’ve never felt so sure about something in your life. 
I know I don’t tell him very often, but I do need him. So, so, so much. He’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me. I would be so lost if he ever went away. He’s my other half.
It’s crazy to think in about 5 days, after almost a year and a half of being long distance, I will be with my other half and starting our life living together for the rest of our lives.

And I honestly couldn’t be any happier.

“the stakes are high, the water’s rough, but this love is ours.”